BLAH! I JUST DONT KNOW ANY MORE....IM SO CONFUSED ON WHY IM…

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Posted by: GuLLiBLeViETgiRL Original: 11/6/2006 1:29 AM Views: 48 Comments: 17 eProps: 10 Read Comments Post a Comment Back to Your Xanga Site

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Monday, November 06, 2006

BLAH! I JUST DONT KNOW ANY MORE....IM SO CONFUSED ON WHY IM SO STUCK ON HIM....I TRUELY HONESTLY THINK ITS CAUSE HE DOESNT GIVE ME THAT ATTENTION.....THAT FEELIN OF LOVE? JUST THAT HE SEEMS LIKE HES JUST WHATEVERS WITH ME..LIKE HES FEELING ARE WHATEVERS ABOUT ME AND STUFF.....I GUESS ITS A CHALLENGE IN SOME WAYS AT THE SAME TIME IT AINT CUZ IM HURTIN INSIDE TRYIN TO HAVE HIM ACCPEPT ME ALREADY....TO JUST HAVE HIS FULL ON ATTENTION ON ME....CAUSE I KNOW I GIVE THAT TO HIM...I'VE DROPPED EVERYTHING FOR HIM...MY SOCIAL LIFES ALL DOWN HILL BUT I'VE TOLD MYSELF TODAY NO MORE....IMMA BE HITTIN UP EVERYONE MORE OFTER TO JUST CHILL......AND WHATEVERS IMMA STILL BE WITH HIM N WHAT NOTS ITS JUST NOT FAIR THAT I'VE BEEN M.I.A WID ALL MY HOMIES WHILE HE STILL HAS HIS EVERYDAY! THAT HE SEES MORE THEN ME! ACK OKOK.....IVE TOLD HIM ALREADY THE OTHER DAY THAT IMMA KICK BACK LET HIM DO HIM AND GO OUT...WHILE ILL BE THE SIDELINE G/F AND JUST BE THERE WHEN HE WANTS ME TOO AND LET HIM BE WHEN HE AINT THERE....I GAVE THAT TO HIM......TOLD HIM STRAIGHT UP WHEN HE WANTS TO CHILL THEN HIT ME UP I JUST WON'T EXPECT TO THINK HE'LL ALWAYS BE HOME.....::SIGH::: I KNOW IM AN IDIOT....I JUST DONT KNOW.... IVE ALWAYS BEEN THE STRONG INDEPENDENT GIRL WHO SAYS "FUCK BOYS IMMA DO ME" AND THEY CAN TAKE IT OR LEAVE IT....MAYB THE ROLE HAS BEEN REVERSED.....I REALLY DONT KNOW.....IMMA JUST WAIT TO SEE WHERE IT GOES FROM HERE.....I JUST DONT THINK I'VE BEEN SO HURT?MAD?SAD? SO MUCH IN SUCH A SHORT TIME PERIOD..... DONT GET ME WRONG....I CARE FOR HIM DEARLY.....WERE SO GREAT WHEN WERE JUST TOGETHER WITH NO BULLSHIT AND I LOVE IT.... WHEN HE DOES HAVE HES ATTENTION ON ME HE MAKES ME FEEL SPECIAL....JUST THE SIMPLE THINGS HE DOES.....WHEN I CATCH HIM LOOKIN AT ME FOR NO REASON AT ALL....OR THE LOOK HE JUST GIVES ME ACROSS THE ROOM....THE LITTLE KISSES ON THE NECK OR BACK.... OUR PLAY FIGHTS.......ALL THE GOOD TIMES.....I WOULDNT CHANGE NONE OF IT....I JUST WISH WE HAD MORE OF IT.....I WISH IT WAS HOW IT WAS A MONTH AGO.....ACK.......TIME TO STOP BLABBIN OFF ABOUT NOTHING.......OUTROZ FOR NOW!!

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sorry i accident stop by and read this, seem sad, but hey sometimes trying to hard is not a good thing, let not stress out and relax, and see how things go.

Posted 11/6/2006 6:48 AM by sadxtango - reply

yeah it won't be out till like another year! a year is like forever lol
how was your day today?

Posted 11/6/2006 1:15 PM by sadxtango - reply

i had a sleepy day haha, i dont know why i cant sleep last night, but yeah other than that nothing went bad lol, oh yeah what's your name, im tri like a treee lol

Posted 11/7/2006 2:59 AM by sadxtango - reply

oh man i feel dumb, i just went back your page and saw your name as linda, dont read the comment above =(

Posted 11/7/2006 3:00 AM by sadxtango - reply

man this sucks. im sorry. i love you. robby and i will pick you up one day and we'll have a date and watch nip tuck and eat kabuki and then you and robby can come smoke greens and then we can chill and have fun w/ your old friends then you'll be happy!

Posted 11/7/2006 2:21 PM by chrissicamry - reply

oh and then you and me can smoke ciggarettes! see! perfect! call robbyyyyy! he's always out doing nothing. he'll chill with you more than me since i have no car either. hahha.

Posted 11/7/2006 2:24 PM by chrissicamry - reply

im not smart haha

Posted 11/7/2006 11:09 PM by sadxtango - reply

you give a man enough space
he shall distance himself from you

sure they say "if you let a person go and if he or she comes back, it is meant to be"
but how real is that? is it not a fairy tale quote? do we really live in a fairy tale
world? we only wish we do but thats not the reality of things. so snap out of it!

Posted 11/8/2006 3:06 AM by atcMonkE - reply

yeah i know. it's weird not having a boyfriend but thank you for keeping him company yesterday. haha. <33 miss you.

Posted 11/8/2006 5:03 PM by chrissicamry - reply

it not cool! one day xanga will buy myspace haha
and all myspace users become xanger
what yours myspace

Posted 11/9/2006 3:15 AM by sadxtango - reply

hahaa, there's a lot perfect things in this world, everyone other than me are just too fuckin stupid to see them :) how've you been anyways?

Posted 11/10/2006 10:52 PM by T7l2iig3l2_7t4pii3 - reply

im hereeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee haha, how you been? me, i been busy lately because i have a job now hehehe, working as a waiter, so tired. my leg hurts! haha what you been doing?

Posted 11/17/2006 6:07 AM by sadxtango - reply

yep about time lol, i got some tips money haha, when you coming to visit me, we can go chucky cheese hehe

Posted 11/19/2006 8:44 AM by sadxtango - reply

eh, most people remember the days their dreams came true, same concept, opposite world, sorry you want me to make it private?

Posted 11/22/2006 12:48 AM by T7l2iig3l2_7t4pii3 - reply

zzz nvm that comment was kinda rude :/

Truth is, everyone tells me I should just forget. And everyone says they understand, but none of them accept they really don't understand any of it, that's why they have to tell me they understand.
I don't think I should forget, after all.. it's nobody's fault. It's the result of something I did.

"One should take responsibility for their actions" Maybe my responsibility is to never forget about that child. Because maybe everyone is happier the way this turn of events concluded, and maybe we would have had to suffer a lot had we chosen differently. But I can never live happy, if it's just me... who will forget everything.
You've heard this story, but you probably forgot, but about 12 years ago, I was on the side of a mountain, cliff walking on opium, and a girl turned to me and said, "We're perfect right?"... it continues a bit, and right before she said "we should be perfect forever", she said "I think I was born just so I could meet you."
If I don't remember, then I don't have any reason for being born.
And the end of both stories, we both know, is the same.
I am sorry, and I will delete it if you want me to though.

Posted 11/22/2006 6:53 PM by T7l2iig3l2_7t4pii3 - reply

You don't pray on the 21st?

Posted 11/23/2006 5:03 AM by T7l2iig3l2_7t4pii3 - reply